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My Struggle with Anorexia/Bulimia

ith the way that some of you talk, I'm not surprised that at age 23, I am fighting (with all that I have) the anorexia/bulimia I have had since I was 16. I am asian-american. When I was young I was "naturally" thin - I ate what I wanted to and was still thin, but when I hit puberty, the pounds just packed on. After hearing one too many people call me "fay-muey" (fat girl, for non-cantonese speakers) I decided to eat no more than 400 calories a day, or not eat at all. On top of that I would cut school to spend 8 hours at the gym running and doing aerobics. That went well, and in 6 months I lost 65 lbs. Everybody was telling me I looked great, furthering my obsession with weight. Until one day, while out with my mom, I straight passed out in the middle of a crowded street - Main Street in Flushing, NY to be exact - not only did I scare the sh!t out of my mother, but I truly scared the sh!t out of myself too... So, I started eating again, and when my size 2 pants started feeling tight again, I decided what could be better than eating all that I wanted, then going straight to the bathroom, sticking my finger down my throat and puking it all out. I mean, I got the fulfillment from the food, but didn't have to worry about gaining any weight! I finally realized at age 18, with my constantly sore throat, and my dry, cracked right hand, that this was not something that I wanted to do. Unfortunately, it's not that easy for four years now, I have been struggling with food. Most of the times, I know how to control my eating, but on those days when I think I've eaten too much, it takes every ounce of my willpower not to run to the bathroom. Sometimes, I'm not that strong. Some of you may think this is gross, or that I'm one f*cked up person, [CUT OFF due to your network's packet-size limits; email long posts]
AF, 23

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