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Love Wife
[CONTINUED BELOW]
Our family was, in any case, an improvisation. The new American family, our neighbor Mitchell once proclaimed, tottering drunk up our deck stairs. But for Carnegie and me, it was simply something we made. Something we chose. His mother, Mama Wong, thought this unnatural. The trouble with you people is not enough periods, she liked to say. You can say I think like Chinese, but I tell you. A child should grow up, say this is my mother, period. This is my father, period. Otherwise that family look like not real. Always good about assigning blame, she blamed the family on me. I know Blondie. Everything a nut do, she do too. She is not even a real nut, like her friend Gariela. She is only try-to-be-nut. To which my friend Gabriela would say: Janie, Your name is Janie, I can't believe you let Mama Wong call you blondie all these years. And Carnegie too! That is like the definition of low self-esteem. I tried to tell her that it was my choice — that I liked nicknames. I tried to tell her that she could think of Blondie as my married name, as if I'd changed my first name instead of my last. For that was the way I was — or thought I was, before Lan came. An open person. A flexible person. Had I not been voted Most Sympathetic to Others in high school? CARNEGIE / Our very own Blondie had, in her day, held the Kleenex for the homecoming queen. But, whatever. Gabriela minded the Blondie bit far more than she minded being called, herself, a nut. She being the first to admit that she had gone back to the earth two or three times, maybe more. Also, that she had spent years finding herself without much progress. BLONDIE / At least you have your family, Gabriela used to say, thumbing through the personals. She circled possibles in pink; her red hair looped out the back of her baseball cap. At least I had my family. I was forty-five when Gabriela last said that; Carnegie was thirty-nine. It was 1999. We lived in a nice town with good schools, outside of Boston — a town within easy driving distance, as we liked to say, of both city and ocean. At least I had my family. Every happy family has its innocence. I suppose, looking back, this was ours. |
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